So, its been a while since I last posted. Sorry. 😦 The last few weeks have been very chaotic and I feel like I’ve gone everywhere. Just today for example – I started the day off in Cubao, then went to Divisoria for 2 hours, Makati for something, then I went to Pasig to visit my sister in the hospital. Recently my days have been that hectic, that the thing that I want most now is just a day in bed.
Truth be told, happy thoughts are hard to come by when you’re just so damn tired. And stressed. And confused. Its not just the tiredness that’s getting to me, but the chaos of it all too. Seems like nothing is going according to plan, and nothing is going smoothly. The easiest thing for me to do now is to be catty, harsh and sarcastic, even when I don’t want to. I’m so caught up in the thought of earning more and more money for the things that I need to spend for, that I actually forgot that its December, and that Christmas is just 16 days away.
Yes, and see, I haven’t even thought of what presents I’m going to give away this year. That’s how stressed I’ve been. But then a couple days ago I got a reminder to not be selfish, especially this season.
I miss being this kind of person — someone who is a person for others. This is a very Atenean trait, I’d like to believe. No matter how much time you spend feeding your physical self with money and other things, your soul will still need some nourishment.