Throwback Entry from November 15, 2007

Today was a boring day at work so I ended up reading old blog posts from college. Guess what I stumbled upon! Hahahaha.

Not a lot of people know that I actually took the UP LAE twice, one in 2007, and one in 2011. This was my 21 year old self talking about how scary the future is.

tomorrow, I will finally do something concrete for my future. [11/15/07 – 12:25 pm]
When I was a kid, when anyone asks me what I wanted to be in the future, I always said that I wanted to be a lawyer. It seemed like the perfect job — most lawyers are sort of well off, and no one messes with lawyers, because they know how to protect themselves. At the same time, I’ve always admired people who could speak so forcefully without being rude, people who are eloquent and very good with words.

But when it came to a point when I realized how hard it is to become one, suddenly, it was like I didn’t want to become one anymore. Having to go through 4 more years of school (and this time, it won’t be like how I got by college. I’m really gonna have to STUDY.), and having to read lots and lots and lots of readings and shit did not really excite me. It’s like.. I know I want to be a lawyer in the future, but I didn’t want to go through all the things that will make me one.

And so I left it up to fate. (In other words, hindi ko na siya inisip, and pretended that the dilemma did not exist. Hahaha.)

Now, when I’m suddenly becoming open to my other career choices, my dad comes barging in and orders me to take law school entrance exams, regardless of whether I wanted to become one or not.

So that’s why, tomorrow, I’m going to be submitting my UP Law application form.

Honestly, I don’t know what I’m feeling right now. I’m nervous because regardless of whether I do go to law school, submitting the application form is already a big step towards my future. Sabi nga ni Tina kanina, at least, I’m finally doing something concrete about it. I’m nervous because it feels like.. it’s really going to happen. It’s becoming a real possibility for me. I’m also nervous because I might be embarking on something that I don’t really want to go through, and in a sense,closing all doors to other things that I may want to do in the future.

But at the same time, I’m also just cool about it all. There’s still the question of whether I’ll pass the test or not (given that apparently, there’s a math section, and I TOTALLY SUCK AT MATH. I don’t even remember a thing about Ma11.), so there’s still a chance that I may not be able to go to law school after all.

I’m excited too, because this may turn out as another blessing in disguise, just like how I got into the Ateneo. (My dad first forced me to go here, despite my wanting to go to DLSU, but I ended up enjoying every bit of my stay in Ateneo.)

In the end, what am I to do? Obviously, if you know me, you’d know what I’m probably doing right now. (Yes, I’m pretending the dilemma doesn’t exist.) I’m just letting fate decide things for me, since I can’t really decide on this for myself.

I’m going through with the application, but I’m absolutely refusing to study for the test. I’ll answer the test with whatever knowledge I have right now. If I’m meant to go there, then I’ll pass. If I’m not, then maybe its time to look for a job. πŸ™‚

What I Love About Cebu (Part 1)

Because I’m already planning my next Cebu trip even though I was just there less than a month ago, I decided to write about Cebu this time around. I figured it was so weird I wasn’t writing about it considering I’m always there.

Ever since I can remember, I have been going there at least once a year because most of my family from both maternal and paternal sides are there. Now, non-family related trips to Cebu have become more frequent as I have accumulated quite a lot friends there already. Oh, I also forgot to mention that I lived there for a month or so while training for the Biggest Loser Finale.

I guess this makes me a pseudo-Cebuana, right? Although just between you and me – I cannot speak Bisaya to save my life. Or maybe I can, I don’t know. I never really tried. I guess I’m just too conscious of being barok or something. I can understand the language though.

The point of this entry? Well, I’m just writing about what I love about the lovely island called Cebu.

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Of Sunflowers and Dreams.

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When I had this photo taken over the summer, little did I know that this was going to be my first and only picture with the sunflowers of UP Diliman. You see, these sunflowers have become the symbol of graduating in UP, as they line University Avenue during March, and bloom exactly during the graduation season. If you’re a UP Diliman graduate, chances are, you have a photo with these sunflowers too.

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Journals and Journal Entries (part 1)

Journals. I’ve had them since 5th grade, and I have no plans of stopping.

This afternoon I unearthed one of my journals inside camp. In the spirit of honesty, I’m gonna admit and say that I had two journals there — one with all the workouts and the wholesome stuff, and one with the things I couldn’t say out loud.

This was one of my entries in the wholesome journal. I’m glad to know it was still me writing, as it was already my 47th day inside camp when I wrote this.

July 27, 2011, Wednesday
BL Day 47


Very, very lazy day today. Been raining hard since yesterday. Went for a rainy afternoon powerwalk with Ryan. Yun lang workout ko. Haha. Had Coach Ching in the evening.Β 


Temptation today too. Ate 2 small bowls of lugaw and 2 small bowls of champorado so that I could be with Francis for the last chance workout. No regrets, the food was very, very yummy! And this week, I promised myself I’d enjoy everything. Go with the flow. Back to the old Leigh. This might be my last week here so might as well enjoy, right?Β 


Weird. I’m probably the only person here that doesn’t want to bring this til the end. I’m cringing at how much pressure I’d have to endure just to get to that level. I don’t think I’m cut out for it. I do have moments wherein I think I want to bring this til the end. I think I now can, especially that my body’s cooperating with me in terms of weight loss. The thing is, do I want it? See, that’s why my mentality now is just to enjoy every second, minute and hour that I am here.

Quoting from Rent —


There’s only us, there’s only this
Forget regret, or life is yours to miss
No other hope, no other way
No day but today.Β 

Funny that I already had a feeling that this would be my last week inside camp. πŸ™‚ After this week was a whirlwind of activities, of things to talk about, of bonding and bashing moments, of crazy imma-beat-the-shit out of that person anger, of kilig moments and stories, and definitely of tons and tons of laughter (care of Joy, Destiny, Win and I, of course.)

Let’s see. I might post some other entries soon. πŸ™‚

Happy 1st Anniversary, BLPE! :)

This time I was last year, I was welcomed back by my dad who was surprised I was back home so soon. April 14, 2011 was the day we all had our first semi – taste of the camp’s brutal workouts and challenges. Destiny, Andy, Kuya Larry and I had to fight it out, as to which of us will be able to officially join the other 12 contestants of the Biggest Loser Pinoy Edition. Unfortunately, Andy and I didn’t make it. While they were already inside camp at this time, meeting the coaches and everyone else, Andy and I were on our way home, figuring out how to explain to everyone why we were back so soon.

Ahhhh. How time flies. It’s always so nice to reminisce about good memories. πŸ™‚

The BL tarp in front of the PBB house

So anyway, because yesterday was our anniversary, we spent it working out. (How fitting, I know.) Not like we don’t do that often enough, but yesterday, we worked out wearing our BL uniforms. It was like a celebration of some sorts. I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I actually miss wearing my fuschia pink shirt. Whoever made the decision to give me fuschia pink.. THANK YOU. Hahaha. πŸ™‚

Side planks — something I’ve never been able to do inside camp.

The Spider Crawl, from Kuya Alan’s list of workouts.
Standing L-R: Leigh, Hazel, Joy
Sitting: Ryan, Raffy

It’s been quite a while since we last all got to hang out. After all, it’s not easy, because most of us have gone back to our old lives and are busy with so many things. Plus, a lot of us aren’t Manila-based, so seeing each other is really a hard feat. But I hope we get to all see each other soon. With everything we’ve gone through together, it’s already like family. πŸ™‚